Sunday, October 28, 2018

Nasrul and His Polo

Date: 28th October 2018

How time flies. Nasrul has moving from another comfort zone, a big boy or rather an adult now I would claim. He agreed to a lot of thing after I shared about Volkswagen's promotion on 21st June 2018 in the family whats App group. It was on Tuesday that the red Polo car appeared in the group. No response from him on my question whether or not he likes to have that Polo as his first car till Friday night. He said okay to visit the Volkswagen sales gallery somewhere near our area the next day, i.e. on Saturday, 23rd June. Everyone except Nazhif who is in UK tag along. Four of us were more excited than the "Apple Boy" turned "Polo Boy".

The whole family accompanied him for the test drive within the Volkswagen compound even though it was Naim who drove. To everyone's surprised, I paid a booking fee of RM500 immediately after everyone convinced that the car is suitable for him and after he, while kissing my face whispered YES, he likes it. The loan was arranged immediately after by a beautiful petite sales girl, Sam Moo. My family never expected that I was serious nor did I expected Nasrul to agree. But I announced publicly that I want him to get his driving licence firstly and secondly he must continue his degree in University Tun Abdul Rahman (UTAR) by October. But none of that important to him anyway. He wouldn't be bothered to entertain to my 2 conditions. He took his own sweet time to take a driving class. When the car is ready to be collected on 13th July, Nasrul did not even sit for the driving test yet.

Naim was the one who drove the car for more than 2 months since his own car was at the workshop due to the accident. Those days when Naim was a teenager, he always hinted that he either want Polo or Golf as his first car. But when the time came for me to buy for him, I wasn't ready to take a loan, hence I bought cash a second-hand car, Peugeot 206 for him to go to college. Indirectly, by letting him drive the Polo while his car is out from the workshop is like fulfilling his old dream. Nasrul doesnt make noises too as he knew he has no bargaining power without a driving licence in his plate (p/s: until to the day I'm writing this, that boy hasn't had his licence yet). 

As for me and hubby, we felt so much content to see Syahirah's and Nasrul's car parked side by side at above photo. All we want is the two of them to have such a harmony living together as we wish them to share the blue house when we are no longer in this world. At present we no longer have any issue of not having transportation of disturbing anyone to drive for as everyone has their own vehicle.

On separate note, Syahirah's first car for her to attend college was Hyundai I10 way back in year 2011, of which she sold off  as downpayment early this year as to get herself a new white Axia. That girl made her own living, capable of getting a loan under her own name without a need for guarantor. That girl has her own pride. I wasn't able to shape her life as I wanted. I rest my case whenever it came to her matter.

Well, the children are busy with their own dreams. Syahirah is preparing for her wedding, Nazhif with working part time, studying and living his own life afar, Naim struggling to have his own business while being an Air Steward, figuring out to change to an International Airline after finishing contract with Air Asia in March next year and Nasrul is busy creating his name as YouTuber and video making. Hubby on the other hand, living peacefully enjoying a heavenly place of our blue house. Suffice to him being surrounded with nature and simple life in this home of ours.

I, in the period of having menopausal state kind of thing, still figuring out of what will I want to do apart from having a secured career life in Gamuda's group of company. Sometimes, I miss those dreams that I created. Despite a busy schedule, I have started writing a book, this blog has been abandoned at one point, cooking is still to be out of context, travelling, chasing trains etc etc.... Gosh, there is so much that I wanted to do but my heart is so at peace as what is important to me is to have only Allah in my heart. The great attainment that I'm chasing now is that Allah is pleased with me. It's the meaning of Surah Al-Maidah verse 119 "Allah will say, "This is the Day when the truthful will benefit from their truthfulness." For them are gardens (in Paradise) beneath which rivers flow, wherein they will abide forever., Allah being pleased with them, and they with Him. That is the great attainment."

That's all for now, peace be upon you!

Tuesday, September 11, 2018


Date: 11th September 2019

I choose to love you in silence....
For in silence I find no rejection,
I choose to love you in loneliness....
For in loneliness no one owns you but me,
I choose to adore you from a distance....
For distance will shield me from pain,
I choose to kiss you in the wind....
For the wind is gentler than my lips,
I choose to hold you in my dreams....
For in my dreams, you have no end.

Remarks.. dedicated to someone that I let the wind blown him away to his faraway land.
My writing will record only a happiness that shall reminded me of His blessing bestowed upon me. 
True love is only to You, I submit only to You. My life, my hereinafter, my prayer ... only to You.
Yes, You did took away the pain in my chest.

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

External Course of Jurisprudence, the final year, I hope...

Date: 19th August 2018

This post is recalling to the time when I was a student again, back to school on 24th October 2013. For the record, I didn't completed my 2nd degree in Jurisprudence in 3 years time as originally intended. It was due to many reasons. The first reason was because I, a General Manager in Contracts & Commercial has failed her Contract Law on the first year. Do not worry should you want to laugh at me for failing the paper that I supposedly majoring at as I too laughed a lot for being over confident in the Contract Law. By not passing all 5 papers in the 1st year, a student can either obtain the degree in 4 or 5 years. Unfortunately, I failed 3 papers in the second year, that was for Equity and Trust, Criminal and Company Law. Luckily I passed all 5 papers in the 3rd year that concluded all 11 papers, left with 6. 

My close colleagues in UM. We have been together for 5 years, all 4 of us.

I could have taken all 6 papers last year and graduated within 4 years but the Hajj took priority over everything else. So, I was so determine to still do it this year and started early in preparing for the exam, as early as January 2018. But reading law is unlike studying for any other subject. It requires dedication, memorizing cases and attempting the past year question as if you are a lawyer debating the case in front of the judges in the real court room. The more I studied the freakier I became. It was tough and I do not think to continue studying anymore after this. I should focus on spending the remaining of my time doing something else that could be more meaningful. 

Living area situation, a month prior to the exam

There is no better word that could rightly expressed how I was feeling 2 weeks before the exam. I couldn't go to the library worried of seeing other people study therefore, I chose to study at the house living area and sometimes in my bed during exam weeks. Once in a while I did joined Zaharah at the UM's library for discussion on subject that I thought I was weaker and she is better. But later I discovered that the best place for me to study and had concentration at, was in my office, alone in my room after an office hour has ended.

The bed situation, a night before the last exam day

The last year in UM was quite an emotional journey for Maryam, Zaharah and myself after spending the last 5 years of our quality time together. The 3 of us became inseparable. Two photos below were snapped when we were having our last class this year. It was taken at 15 minutes break while having an International Law class on 3rd June 2018 with Puan Nur Halida, that was the last subject that I sat on 13th August 2018. This 2 ladies are my true best friend that I wish to stay truthful as I found a real friendship meaning with them. Yes, we had too much of good memories together. We are so free to speak up our mind without worrying of getting hurt or be hurt with the spoken words. For example, Zaharah though reluctantly gave away her Telekong when I said I wanted it as it's so unique and seems comfy. Days later I reminded her that she is indeed very lucky because I asked her Telekong for me to use and be reminded of her whenever we are apart. She said I was being funny but hey, "true friend is a person who made you feel so comfortable being yourself without the need to change yourself to be their friend". We are a friend in good and bad time. Hehehe, you better agree to disagree with what I wrote here. Very domineering person right?

Next on the plate I guessed, since I've been reading and watching too many good stories, it is now my turn to start writing a good story too. That's the challenge I must focus from now on . Life is indeed so good! To the rest, I wish you all could take this opportunity to spend the remaining days of your life to achieve things that has not been achieved yet. Therefore, when you are finally rested in the permanent life, cold in the coffin, you knew that you have done it all.


Saturday, August 18, 2018

Mamma Mia 2 "Here We Go Again" - Time to celebrate

Date: 17th August 2018

I was just celebrated my 52nd birthday and its a real celebration this time around. My exam was over on 13th August with 2 law papers back to back. It was a horrible feeling as I went blank when listening to my colleague discussing the afternoon paper, an hour before I entered the exam hall. But I tried my level best to answer till my hand couldn't continue writing no more. I decided to stop 20 minutes before the exam time was over. 

The exam aftermath was amazing. I slept, slept and slept. There's a long to do list but I chose to take thing slowly. I'm recovering well and it's all a good feeling. A day after my birthday I invited my sister to go out for a movie. It was a Mamma Mia the 2nd movie of which Syahirah and I waited so long to watch after the 1st Movie was screening in 2008. We felt in love with the 1st movie that we watched 10 years ago as we joined the rest of the audience singing along in this jukebox musical film. It was fun. It was worth to celebrate with, i.e. a real celebration.

The story line this time is even more beautiful than the 1st movie, in my opinion. Syahirah and I both cried on the last scene when Sophie's at her son's christening, felt her late mother's presence while singing "my love, my life". It was a touching moment as I felt my late mother's presence with me too. Everything about the film and how the set was decorate are so soothing, so beautiful to my liking. Unbelievable that the principle photography of the film set in Croatia including the beautiful island, Vis said to be a must visit place when in Croatia.

And below trailer is with the lyrics of the song that reminded me of my late mother and the feeling of love that I have over my daughter, Syahirah. May the 3 of us shall be reunited in the after life as I love to see my late mother again and I'm sure I would miss my daughter Syahirah when I passed away. Amen!

Monday, July 2, 2018

Eid 1439, 2018

Date: 30th June 2018

Well, today is the last day of June 2018. People in Malaysia, especially Muslim are still celebrating a month of Eid celebration which is a norm thing in here. There's an open house everywhere. As for me, I celebrated eid for only 2 days. The first day of my eid was well spent with neighbors, families and friends. On second day, we visited our dearest aunt in Mantin and dropped by to see Harraz, my cute nephew.  

What make this year's eid special was because my husband and I received our first eid angpow for the first time in our life. The children used to see us passing angpow to the elders at each eid throughout their life. Since Naim and Syahirah has both earning salaried job, they decided to start their own custom. We were surprised as we never thought they would be sincerely enough to give that token of appreciation. The best feeling ever. Even their grandfather also receiving from them both. My father in law was beaming with happiness when Syahirah passed her angpow packet.

We chose dark blue color for eid attire. I bought mine and Syahirah's suit from Ariani and the boys had theirs from Jakel. Next year, we decided to have a custom made tailor. For the record, the second year celebrating eid in the new house felt even better. Hubby and I still recall of what had happened to us both, a year before. Like last year, my one and only loyal sister came to my rescue again this year. She helped me with the cooking and celebrated the first half of eid with us before adjourned to reunite with my brother in-law's family side in Malacca. Unfortunately I did not snapped any of the food photos for me to share with you of our eid meal. Next year, perhaps, I will share a lot more details.

Well, exam is just around the corner and I sat busy at home and in the office since early morning getting stressed up with the 6 law papers. Exam will begin on 2nd August and ended on 13th of teh same month. It's quite tough as I wishes and pray to finish-off everything in August 2018. A lot of other things waiting after 13th August 2018. The first in line was the list that I promised the Almighty to do when I was in Mecca last year. Second priority thing to do are to focus on the house the gardening and the cooking. Thirdly is the family trip for Nazhif's graduation in July next year. I had to stop for now and hopefully would be able to catching up with writings after August. Ciao...

Sunday, May 13, 2018

What matter is “The Unity of Malaysian People”

Date: 13th May 2018

I have been voting since PRU13. It must be shocking to some but I have my reasons for not doing so before. I grew up in rural Kelantan where the people are being divided into “BN” or “PAS”. Everything has been separated in the name of the political parties. There are 2 mosque, 2 surau, 2 community hall and even the families argued over political disparity in my village. My family for instance has similar problem. Both of my parent are PAS members but our 2 neighbours (both are mother’s cousin) are not. BN sides are more liberal whilst PAS supporter being seen as traditional, conservative. Since young age, I hate the fact that the politician’s malicious act that separated the nation, the states, the villages, the families and the unity of the people. They doing so for their own benefit, to attract voters and as soon as they being elected as leaders, they ended up being so corrupt in managing the countries.

My father brought us up with just and moral values. He never take advantages of him assisting PAS party for his family benefit. He sponsored our studies with his savings. I did not enjoy any scholarship from the government except some small assistance from JKR, where he worked. I received minor compensation when I excel in my studies from JKR. So, I never expected to get support from the Government hence I do not any relevance for me to involve in voting at all the election.

In 2007, while waiting for travel arrangement to Karachi, I was for a short while station in IJM Headquarters. I started to buy newspaper reading about Altantuya’s murder case. Dato’ Seri Najib (hereinafter refer as DSN) and the wife were both linked to the case. I started to focus to this couple and little did I know at that time that the couple has a gut to do a lot more harm to the nation. What was concluded at that time was; DSN has misused his power being a Minister of Defence in getting his political aid, Abdul Razak Baginda freed from all allegation relating to Altantuya case. DSN and his political aid were clearly involved in the dealing to purchase the Scorpene submarines from France for the Malaysian government. Altantuya, who being filled with greed had threatened Abdul Razak Baginda only over USD11,000 and that caused her death. I personally concluded that the case is too big for DSN to clear his link to the murder case and will no longer has any privileges in the party.

However, after the election on 2008 (PRU12), DSN star started to shine brightly. Never in my rational thought could imagine that he would be elected as the Prime Minister of Malaysia and serve the country from 3rd April 2009 till 10th May 2018. How could, the only person that can authorise the 2 Government officer’s Azilah Hadri and Sirul Azhar to take out an explosives in the stock of federal police headquarters in Bukit Aman to be used in the murder of Altantuyaa being trusted with the most scared position in Malaysia. He is in power for 9 years where a lot more bad incidents happened to Malaysia.

Thereafter, I enrolled myself in University Malaya to take up a Degree in Jurisprudence to understand more about the rule of law and the governing matter. The only way to outcast the sacred post, Prime Minister is through exercising my right as Malaysian. I registered and started voting in 2013. Unfortunately DSN star was at his peak. Allah wanted to punish the Malaysian as we, the pupils are deserving to have DSN due to our ignorance too. Not long after, everyone started to change including Tun Mahathir. That was the results of 2018, i.e. PRU14. Now, as I’m writing this, justice started to surface one by one, including the truth about the RM2.6Billion scandal. But be careful, politicians are still politician. Not many people can put aside the temptation of “cash is king”.

Moving forward, though my prayer has been answered when DSN was overthrown and prohibited from leaving the country, I continue my prayer daily, seeking Allah’s assistance to guide all of Malaysian to gradually change for the better. Once we change, people around us will change too and who knows that one day the whole politician who is entrusted with power will carry duties following the Holy Book and the Rule of Malaysian Law. I would end this entry with small portion of Rumi’s quote of “Pity the Nation”

Pity the nation whose statesman is a fox,
whose philosopher is a juggler,
and whose art is the art of patching and mimicking.

Pity the nation that welcomes its new ruler with trumpeting,
and farewells him with hooting,
only to welcome another with trumpeting again.

Pity the nation whose sages are dumb with years
and whose strong men are yet in the cradle.
Pity the nation divided into fragments,
each fragment deeming itself a nation"

Friday, March 23, 2018

The best burger at Big Bob Burger

Long outdated post!

I came to know about the Big Bob Burger when Atria Damansara re-open after a long renovation of its shopping outlet. The restaurant open its chain on the 1st floor just opposite Nando's. And Nasrul is a huge fan of burgers, so I thought that I should brought him one day to experience the burgers that he would definitely enjoy. True enough, not only Nasrul, hubby and Naim enjoyed it too. There was once I ordered a takeaway burger for Nazhif during iftar so he too would taste how good it was.

Big Bob Burger's most recommended for big eater!

Big Bob Burger brings together a combination of international flavors as a result of years of research and a careful selection of choice ingredients from it’s founder. They presents its unique blend of barbecue sauce, fresh patties and all the right toppings to make their burgers not only look perfect but the taste that valued for money. Big Bob Burger is a truly home-grown Malaysian company that serves quality food whilst preserving original flavors. Beside their signature burgers, they have many other choices menu to your liking too. Breakfast selection menus range from sandwiches, french toast, egg Benedict waffle while for lunch you could also opted for Italian Pizza and Pasta. Only 2 choices of freshly salad are available, i.e. Bob's Salad and Grill Chicken Creaser Salad. 

Nasrul choice "The Combo"
made of; a homemade Burger Bun, Cheddar Cheese, Cheese Sausage, Beef Breakfast Sliced,Tomato, Romaine, Hand Made Patties, Bob’s BBQ Sauce, Mustard & Ketchup

Another big eater that can eat real a lot, especially dessert

The 4 of us who enjoyed a dinner sometimes back

A broad menu presents a good selection of pastas, pizzas, bread and tantalizing side dishes, accompanied by the best coffee brew in town. True, their coffee selection is another killer menu for coffee lovers, must try. 

A closer look of Super Duper, a homemade burger bun, Cheddar cheese, beef breakfast sliced, tomato, romain, handmade patties, Bob’s BBQ sauce, mustard, egg, fried prawn & ketchup

A must have dessert - Fluffy Buttermilk Pancake with Vanilla Ice Cream, Blueberry and Pinenuts